Only four days left before the official deadline of the written dissertation. I can’t wait for this to be over. I constantly remind myself to breathe and not to dwell too much on the nerves. The whole process has made me more knowledgeable than ever about my research project. At the same time, it made me realize how little I know about my field and that there are many exciting questions out there waiting to be answered or at least addressed. This is the “lay of the land” – my desk, where I have spent at least ten (sometimes twelve) hours each day, including weekends (maybe five to six hours on Sundays) for the past two weeks, reading, writing and taking breaks online (like what I’m doing now). It’s not something I’m used to doing – working long hours for consecutive days. I usually spread out the tasks of the week nicely so that I don’t make myself crazy or too tired. But when the task requires a lot of thinking and brain power, I realized I can actually stay put and work hours on end. Well, I really don’t have choice, do I? And besides, my brain seems to function better when the deadline is right around the corner. I’m almost there. And I can’t wait.
P.S. I got an email from one of my committee members – she is going out of the country and will be back a day before my defense, so I have to finish the whole thing a day earlier. It’s crunch time now!
Amidst the chaos that is my desk, my little yoga froggie reminds me to breathe.