It was gorgeous today. The sun was out, there was a cool breeze in the air and it felt like summer is just around the corner.
But it was gloomy inside me. And the allergy symptoms aren’t helping. I spent most of the day blowing my nose. My eyes itched like crazy and my contacts decided to fold itself in the middle of a blink; it folded three more times before I got it out of my eye. And I did not bring my glasses, so I had to put it back. And I did not feel like writing even a word for this article that I’m supposed to be finishing. And I did not have enough cells to set-up an experiment. And my other cells were not confluent enough to be split or passed or be plated for a transfection tomorrow. I’m taking off this weekend, so no over-the-weekend experiments for me. That means any productivity in the lab will have to be moved next week. And I had an omelet for lunch. A huge one. Three hours later, I got a call from a friend – she was feeling depressed. Misery loves company, so I went to chat with her over pizza and beer. And I had a yoga class after the unplanned binge. And I did all the yoga poses under the influence – sort of semi-drunk (I had two beers). It was almost trance-like. Good thing I did not vomit. I was surprised I was still able to have good balance. And I did not feel relaxed afterwards. And during the ride back home, I had to hear the two Katy Perry songs that I can’t stand. And I was supposed to get stuff for my sister to send to her for her birthday, but I wasn’t in the mood for shopping. And there is no more American Idol results show to watch. And I felt the whole day was a waste.
But in retrospect, it wasn’t a waste after all. I think I needed this day – a perfect sunny day to sulk and to just bask in the disappointments and sadness and helplessness. I was able to just let all this negative energy flow out of me. Tomorrow is definitely going to be a better day.