We are never contented. This is essentially part of human nature. There are two ways of looking at it: 1) we strive for fulfillment, which is a good thing in itself and 2) we dream and we pursue dreams because we seek contentment. But oftentimes, we don’t get the things we want and we seldom feel fulfilled. We feel inadequate and we yearn for things or opportunities that we don’t have. This is a healthy emotional reaction that once in a while comes up in one’s personal reflection but if you let yourself get lost in this line of thinking, you will find yourself spiraling down into the depths of self-pity, envy and depression. Sometimes I find myself wondering what my life would have been had I not moved to the US and pursued a (seemingly elusive as time goes by) PhD degree. But I do try my best to acknowledge this discontent and accept the fact that my present scenario is what matters and not the what-ifs and the could-have-beens.
The lesson here is simple but a tad complicated to achieve – we need to find satisfaction in the things we have and in the place that we are in. Once in a while we need to remind ourselves of what we have and be grateful for them.
And now, I really have to go back to doing my lab presentation for tomorrow.
(musings while pondering on how to “spin-off” a recycled lab meeting presentation)